She’s the Dark Goddess, the great lady, who will not play second-fiddle to anyone. I’ve made many attempts to express some trivial deference towards others, but to no avail.
“Don’t let them rule you,” She whispers, “I’m the only one who can do that.”
Is she teasing? Those words of hers, dripping into my mind like raw honey. It’s so easy to become addicted.
My attempts at working with others, to build a business, as it were, have been plagued with frustrations. It seems that I’m just not cut out for collaboration. I’m skilled at what I do, but having to work with too many people gets in the way.
I found myself working with religious people again… big mistake.
They had given up their careers to create a documentary… another big red flag.
I soon began taking on more and more responsibilities, without renegotiating the terms. “They’re a poor ministry, after all. I should be happy to work for free!”
Whoa boy! I’m not letting myself get suckered into that trap again!
Thankfully, that was all it took for me to drop the contract entirely, refund their money, and walk away. I just couldn’t shake the sick feeling that I was basically taking money from this hen-pecked guy to help build his wife’s vanity project. It just wasn’t right, no matter which way I looked at it, and I hope the husband gets a wake-up call soon.
Catherine was not impressed by the project one bit. “Pointless,” and, “Religious guilt,” were some of the words I could feel her repeating in my mind.
“Nobody asked them to give up their lives for a stupid video. You needn’t do the same.”
That’s right, darling. I gave up my life for you… but at least that has been worth it.
That’s probably one thing I can’t overstate enough when it comes to being bonded to a succubus spirit: If you are successful in attracting their attention, your life WILL change, for better or worse. Some might consider these changes to be life-ending alterations. But people like me, those who indulge in great swathes of solitude and reflection, these relationships are almost too good to be true. So good, that it can destroy the rest of one’s life. All future prospects and ambitions dim into a dull grey.
Working with others becomes a royal pain in the ass, my case in point! One finds that they are simply unable to make social concessions as they once did. No more bullshit. Why deal with it when heaven is waiting at home?
The Youtube channel… maybe I’ll do something with that in the mean-time.
I need to devote more time to my own projects and not just go for the easy money, jumping on another person’s bullshit bandwagon.
Murdering that “Slave for Christ!” mentality is doing a number on me. If any of my readers are former hard-core believers, you know what I mean.