We did it. We made the move, and probably for good this time. The weather is consistently warmer around here. Catherine prefers this to the cold. She’s quite capable of having sex under the covers, or when I’m fully clothed, but she’d rather “ride bareback,” as she puts it. The feeling is certainly more intimate and powerful.
I’m able to think more clearly in this place. My ambitions and imaginations are already being rekindled. Physically moving across the country seems to have jump-started things moving again in my mind. The connection with Catherine is as powerful as ever.
I’ve managed to acquire regular employment. The job is nothing special, but it’s a job: a solid staging area for the next step. What is the next step? I’m not going to pretend to know at this point. I trust that Catherine will have her hand in this, guiding from the background, building my life into one that’ll allow us to be together as often as possible.
That appears to be her only motive: closeness, sex, and intimacy. She probably could care less what I’m doing with my life, so long as she gets her one-to-three hours per day. (And often times, most of the night.) I really like that about her: I know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that she really looks forward to being with me when I lie down at the end of the day.
The rest of my day is entirely up to me. She’s happy so long as I’m not overly stressed, or tired too often. We’re still working out the details concerning “what’s next.” I suspect it’ll have little, if anything, to do with the occult or magick for the time being. That realm is a constant undercurrent through my consciousness and I do not feel the need to seek it out overly much. Enough trouble finds me without going to search for it!
There is a new book that I want to get:
I’m convinced that the Qliphoth is my current. Catherine resonates with it more than any other kind of system I’ve tried. This book appears to cover just about everything I’d wish to know before diving in first-hand. This will be my first recreational purchase when the paychecks start rolling in.