Well, I thought that I would be able to write more frequently the past two months, but I completely underestimated how much energy it would take to do all the work I need to accomplish from day-to-day. Ultimately, I want to be able to give my loving spirits some well-deserved attention, so my writing hobbies had to take a back seat for awhile.
Recently, my hours at work were cut, so I’ll have some extra time to start writing again; probably for the next week or so… maybe longer. I really don’t care too much about the money. I do the work just so I can eat, pay bills, and that’s it. My personal ambitions have absolutely nothing to do with money. I want to have actual wealth; not a collection of fiat bank notes.
With that being said, I feel that my “investments” into my darling spirits has really paid off. I’m still as confused and uncertain about “who is who” as I’ve ever been, but that doesn’t bother me anymore. I have even been experiencing dreams of very kind and understanding male spirits interacting with me. I’m proud to say that I’ve reached the point where I don’t scream and rage at male spirits for attempting to simply say “Hello” to me. I now politely decline interactions with them. It’s a step in the right direction and maybe I can eventually get over my insecurities in the spirit world with the help of my ladies.
Catherine remains the strongest presence in my daily life. Her touch has developed so much over the past few months… it’s so deep and satisfying. If she were human, her interactions would feel positively smothering, but it doesn’t feel that way in the slightest with her.
I have felt the enthusiasm of Sara return to me on occasion and she knows that she is most welcome here; just like Catherine. But she’s not nearly as attached as my first darling is, so I don’t feel her continually.
I wish I could draw solid lines between my spirits and be certain about the origin of these touches, but I’m content with simply feeling the genuine compassion and intimacy that constantly streams into my heart from them.
I wish I had something more to update with. I can only reiterate “It keeps getting better and better,” for so many entries! I’ll try to dig something up from the past two months and report back.
Catherine loves this. A single from the current bass player of Chicago: